Full-Blown Suffering: My Fight Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often start with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose unusual treatments for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists released the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with occasional episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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